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In the latest episode of her podcast Burke in the Game, the Dancing With The Stars alum got real about how she’s been feeling. She started off by bravely saying she “wasn’t okay” and she has a “long process” ahead of her:

“Last week I said I wasn’t okay. This week, I’m still pissed but I know that this whole issue that we’re going through right now is going to be a long process.”

The actress, who announced she was two years sober in September 2020, is still struggling down the “winding road” of her addiction. She revealed she’s “taking it hour by hour”. She also admitted she’s been thinking about drinking “a lot more than normal”:

“And I just can’t let it ruin my life because it is what it is, and right now, it’s out of my control. So right now I’m trying to practice what I preach and I’m trying to just take it day by day, hour by hour. Speaking of, I don’t wanna say that I’ve been feeling like drinking again lately. But it’s definitely been on my mind a lot more than normal.”

The dancer then revealed she’s felt “stuck” but has been going to a therapist and is able to recognize her “triggers” and get herself out of potentially harmful situations:

“I just noticed, though, when I was out with my friends the other night, that there’s like a time frame when I should not be out, and I think it’s, like, 10:30. I know that’s like a senior citizen time, but I noticed that after dinner, that people want to go out afterwards. I think I’m best just to drop people off as the designated driver and go on my merry way. Because I am triggered by people who have more than maybe a couple drinks around me, especially late at night.”

She also expressed her desire to “hold herself accountable”:

“I’m really trying to call it out, because that is the name of the game and so that I don’t unfortunately or fortunately relapse. I don’t want to have to even have that discussion. I think it’s important to hold myself accountable and that’s what I’m doing by talking to you guys.”

Finishing up the candid look into her emotions, the 38-year-old thanked her fans for “listening” and supporting her:

“Thank you for listening and this podcast has been very helpful with any crazy emotions that go through my body.”

Cheryl is so brave for being so open about her feelings! We truly wish the best for her and send her our love!

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