#The Pam-Only Episode Of Pam & Tommy Is A Series High Point

Though the real Pamela Anderson hasn’t spoken ill of Hefner, she has been clear about how disgusting the deposition experience was, and her quote about it creates a stark contrast from her descriptions of her time with Playboy. In the book “Tommyland” (excerpted via Esquire), she says the following about the experience:

It was great sitting through depositions, where old men with crusty white sh*t in the corners of their mouths would hold up pictures of me naked in Playboy and ask why I’d even care that the tape was out there…I couldn’t handle it. It got to a point where I could not go to another deposition with these sweaty old guys asking me about my sex life.

The full extent of the lawyers’ creepiness becomes clear in the episode’s final moments, when they full-court-press Pam about her every decision, motivation, and desire. If she’s having sex in a car in the video, wasn’t she worried that truckers could see her from their angle above? Doesn’t that basically mean she doesn’t care who sees her have sex? The questions go on and on, and at a certain point, they become unbearable. Pam retreats to the bathroom, where she vomits.

In the quiet final moments of the episode, we realize that Pam is pregnant again. She seemingly hasn’t told anyone in the room — this is one thing happening to her body that she can keep private, for now. She tells her lawyer she wants the depositions to be done. She doesn’t cry as she packs up her files; despite these men’s best efforts, she’s leaving with her dignity intact. Yet despite remaining unapologetic throughout the grueling and invasive process, Pam can’t help but revert back to people-pleaser mode at the last moment. The episode ends with her softly telling the maintenance workers, “I’m sorry we left such a mess.”